Because I love u....

Your mischief...ur naughty behaviour...ur unavoidable shaitani....
I jus get so fed up....but when i turn to u to shout...i stop ...because i love u...

so many times u hurt....urself or me...
I turn back to say ... "I had told u!! see!!!"
but again I pause n cant say what i wish...
because i love u ..I retrieve...

When u come to me n kiss me,
when I take u in my arms,
the way I feel,
Even though its tiring ,
m satisfied to run after u to feed u meals.

My baby...like a delicate flower,
Your love is like a rainy shower,
ur giggles are so pure...
That is why
Mumma loves you unreasonably dear!!

A dream.....unfulfilled..

Sitting in my room..so many thoughts jus peep in mind n go away...but there is some thought..standing in one corner of the mind...without moving..jus stable...waiting for me to notice it. With full patience...its jus there..

N ya ....(obviously) i did notice it as I am describing it. As i could feel it clearly now...let me ask u Thought...what are u exactly..?? from where did u come..??? i dint even know when u entered my mind n when did u take over my life...? are u just a thought or more than that- a dream..a passion...a change i wish to see...?? I cribbed about it..i cried...i asked God n I prayed for it...

Yes, u were just a thought...but u have made the best place in the heart now...now u have become a dream for which I can sleep forever...a passion for which I can do anything n everything...A change, in which i imagined myself with u...i perceived u as the person, who wud change my life...

but even before u enter my life...jus a thought of u have changed it.. I enjoy each moment when i think of u...its jus like swinging back n forth...faster n faster...n feeling the air on ur face...that kind of feeling of adequacy...

I enjoy as the kids do, while making castles in the sand....
kids...they involve themselves fully while making a castle n then get attached to it so much that they dont want to leave the beach....I hope my castle of dreams never breaks...!!!

The language of silence...

the day was not going so good....was not feeling so well....facing health problems(the idiotic backpain n tht kind...anyways i dont wanna crib abt it as thts not the issue)...was on my way home....the same road...the same small shops in that small galli....on the first shop on the left side ...usually a cat sits there...on the table...so many days...i have been seeing her since so many months...not everyday but ya, usually she is there....whenever i pass by...i just pat her n leave..dont wait there....

but today ..when i was feeling really low...i just felt like waiting there...just playing with her....as usual..i patted her....n she just licked my hand with all affection (I am sure my hands were clean n it did not have any kind of smell ;) )....she just put her palm in my hand as if she wanted to stop me...she did not want to let me go.... as if she recognized my touch...as if she knew me...it felt so nice...she couldnt talk..but the message was so clear...the feelings got conveyed.....

such a change...pleasant one....i mean was she there to cheer my mood???? God knows...but really m happy..when i think of the kitty...it still brings a smile on my face....is it language of love or silence....? or is it some kind of bond....

sometimes even small situations can change your mood...or more than that the perception....a tiny life brought a smile on my face....never underestimate anyone!!swear....i think they deserve much more than what they are given...more life, more love, more respect!! just because they can not talk...oops!!!....it has to be like this : just because we CAN NOT UNDERSTAND, what they talk....we treat them as animals.....human being ...is the biggest animal i guess...i dont know how i ll improve after this...but definitely i would try..love u kitty...thanks for making my day normal again n thanks for teaching me something really important!!

Happiess of SouL

have u ever had the taste of happiness...??? it is more than just smiling....once u smile, n then u just feel like smiling forever.....its like being a kid at heart....may be its the kid within u giggles from heart n then u just dont want to give away the smile...it doesn't require a great reason....may be just another small one wud make smile.....but thats more than enough....coz it' ll make ur day completely!!!!

u feel fresh, u feel naughty, u feel on top of this world....or may be the world doesnt exist at all....because u are already lost in ur own world....wow!!! what a feeling! don't know how to describe in words.....may be someone else could describe it...but i am not able to do it so well... (n I am happy to say, thts y those ppl are called experts) anyways....i call it "The happiness experienced by the soul"...its definitely much beyond a smile..its long lasting...n it lifts ur mood like anything....i felt like dancing(n i swear i danced a little on the road.. ;) ), my heart was singing...so it was kind of automatic.....i felt like singing aloud..n i was...because i believe thats the advantage of being wid ur loved ones....neither they mind whatever u do....nor u think abt how wud they feel....

this year's first rain....a walk at night, a perfect one to remember for the rest of my life...wet road..yellow lights, reflecting on roads appearing as golden carpets, the smell of soil....its heaven...n while having a walk, feeling the raindrops on ur body...as refreshing as the conversation..as refreshing as the hot coffee during rains ...a suitable topic...giggles.... just enjoying the comfort level (so many years' friendship is the reason [TOUCH WOOD!!] )...not caring for anything else...no disturbance...no tensions...no stress...a smooth moving conversation just as a never-ending road......talking about crushes we have had :) n we share :( ....n just cherishing some old memories.... i felt like time has taken us back in the past... 5-6 years back.........truly amazing feeling...

i remembered old days...school days....when we used to hold hands n go together to school....shared almost everything....from secrets to grudges to gossips to crazy dreams to tiffins.....jumped into roadside ponds....getting wait in rains...our school was just 10 mins away from our places.....n we used to take half an hour or to walk down....golden day n golden memories...so many of them...one day..if possible ...i ll write a book on those...love u dear!!! n thank for the most wonderful night :) !!!

may be thats called the QUALITY TIME!!!!

The eve time

sitting by my window in the eve...sun is ready to set n night is to arrive ...
wind passing by my side, tickling my hair...leafs rustle as they swing with the air...
its not yet dark...nature, in its own ways ,leave marks...

street lights turned on...birds started chirping, my eyes lookin outside window n mind thinking...
eyes trying to catch the way nature changes after each moment ...so easily absorbing its own changes...

the sun throwing its shades at sky n sky takes them all in...without complaints , grudges, n cribbing.. it reflects sunset colors as if on a canvas painting..

one moment ago it was directing to east ,now as the mood changed so changed the direction of the wind...its a such a pleasant atmosphere trying to teach so many things...

Thank you :)

Too many things to say...i thank god for each day....
when faced wid difficulties, i crib, i cry, but i still live, never wish to die...
i know i m weak many times,but as i hv been confronting problems i m stronger each time...
i thank god for giving me birth, i thank god for this beautiful earth...
i thank god for giving me millions of opportunity to prove my worth...
i have learned a lot of things, and still a long way to go,
i have seen myself growing n the way others grow..
i have learnt to accept my mistakes n i have learnt to respect other's strength
but i m still trying to trust my decisions n have faith in my strengths...
its difficult to accept changes n move on in life....
the moment i adapt to a change...life takes for another ride....
thts the way life goes on.....changes , acceptance, adjustment n happiness...
if i pass the phase...i'll learn to live life in the Best way...!!!